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Monday, 10 March 2008
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Some days I feel lucky. Some days I feel lost.
Today, I feel disoriented, confused, unsure, and dependent.
Hm.
Monday, 10 December 2007
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drink up baby, stay up all night
With the things you could do-
You won't but you might.
The potential you'll be that you'll never see,
The promises you'll only make.
Drink up with me now,
And forget all about the pressure of days.
Do what I say and I'll make you okay
And drive them away
(The images stuck in your head.)The people you've been before
That you don't want around anymore,
That push and shove and won't bend to your will...
I'll keep them still.Drink up baby, look at the stars.
I'll kiss you again between the bars,
Where I'm seeing you there with your hands in the air
Waiting to finally be caught.
Drink up one more time and I'll make you mine,
Keep you apart, deep in my heart,
Separate from the rest, where I like you the best
And keep the things you forgot.The people you've been before
That you don't want around anymore,
That push and shove and won't bend to your will...
I'll keep them still.
Monday, 19 November 2007
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When a dragonfly lands on you, you will hear excellent news from someone far away from home. A dead dragonfly symbolizes sad news. The dragonfly symbolizes going past self-created illusions that limit our growing and changing. Dragonflies are a symbol of the sense of self that comes with maturity.
They are fantastic flyers, darting like light, twisting, turning, changing direction, even going backwards as the need arises. They are inhabitants of two realms - starting with water, and moving to the air with maturity, but staying close to water. Some people who have the dragonfly as their totem have had emotional and passionate early years, but as they get older they achieve balance with mental clarity and control. They gain an expression of the emotional and mental together.
Dragonflies are old and adaptive insects, and are most powerful in the summer under the effects of warmth and sunlight. Their colors are a result of reflecting and refracting the power of light. As a result, they are associated with color magic, illusion in causing others only to see what you wish, and other mysticism.
Dragonflies are reminders that we are light and can reflect the light in powerful ways if we choose to do so. "Let there be light" is the divine prompting to use the creative imagination as a force within your life. They help you to see through your illusions and allow your own light to shine in a new vision.
For the dragonfly (and its closest relative, the damselfly), life starts out encased in an egg. These eggs are laid in water, and when the young dragonfly emerges, it is known as a nymph. These juvenile dragonflies are not nearly of the beauty or stature of their adult counterparts. In fact, they can be downright ugly. Their wings are tiny and their jaws are large and extended, to make it easier to find their favorite foods (like mosquito larvae). They can spend three years in the nymph stage, living in water, waiting to truly take form.The chance that the procedure of morphing from nymph to dragonfly is painful is very high. The first step seems easy enough. The nymph just climbs out of the water to rest on a plant stem or leaf. But then, the process really begins! The skin of the nymph begins to split, with the new head emerging from the ruins. The rest of it emerges, until finally free, its wings have a chance to dry and become strong enough to fly. The process takes about two hours. However, it won't be fully complete for another day or two, when the beautiful colors begin to fully come in.
Dragonflies were originally given their name to pay tribute to the awesome power and strength of their jaws for hunting and catching their prey. Their diet consists mostly of flies and mosquitoes and the like, which luckily we view as pests.
The dragonfly's shell is designed with special facets that reflect and refract their beautiful colors and the light of the sun. This almost sparkling appearance has leant added meaning to the dragonfly's form. They've taken on a mystical and magical symbolism. The dragonfly's magic is its light magic, and all of the wonderful similes, metaphors and cliches that light has inspired. In Japan, the Japanese people have chosen to honor the dragonfly as a symbol of joy and new light.

Thursday, 15 November 2007
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yesterday is gone. did you waste it? do you regret how to spent it?
will you feel that way about today, come tomorrow?
these are the questions that have occupied my mind lately. i am doing everything within my power to stay happy and enjoy every last second i have left... 'cause i never know when that last second will tick by.
scary thought.
Tuesday, 06 November 2007
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Ohhh geez.
I am going to claw myself right out of this skin I'm stuck in. I am still in denial. I can't believe it. I pass her house every day on the way to school. Her car has been there the past couple of days, idk why because I thought they gave it to Aaron. Unless he gave it back or something. I don't know.
It hurts so much. I want to escape but I know that I can't. This will never go away, it is set in stone. Permanent. She is gone, forever. Not just a couple of months. Not just a year or two... or five... or twenty.
Forever.
Please come back...


